About me

I'm Victoria.
Winner, fighter, survivor and a proof,
that no matter what happened to you or what you are dealing with,
you can win your life back.

 You may know me from dozens of covers of Playboy and FHM magazines all around the world. From TV, newspapers and websites related to adult Industry and entertainment. As a model, actress, dominatrix, director, producer and a businesswoman.

Since 2023 you might know me as a life coach, therapist and a healer.

And in 2025 you might have noticed I’ve completely disappeared from social networks and public life. Why? I going to tell you. 

During my life, I was perceived as someone who was living "the dream". Someone who had everything and an easy life. A celebrity, rich, famous, beautiful, wanted and admired. But in reality, I wouldn’t wish for anyone to be like me or to have my life.

People saw only what I showed them and allowed them to see. Most of the time not by my own decision but by design of those I worked for and those handling me.

People saw a persona, an act, a mask which was created to look, sound and behave certain way. To fulfil certain goal, purpose and to push an agenda.

A persona created as a result of trauma and conditioning. A result of having no autonomy over my life, mind, body, and being trapped in a corner with no way out.

A persona created by my desperate need to be seen, loved and cared for.

A persona where I was trying to look and be perfect while hiding, ignoring and pushing away the pain, chaos and emptiness underneath.

Even after I left the adult and entertainment industry and showbusiness, what I shared with the world and people around me was just a fraction of the real me. A fraction of millions of broken pieces I was trying to understand and put together. All while trying to stay strong and keep going.

In my life I have learned that people don't want the real me. And the only way I can survive is to be what they want me to be. To keep my head down, to be a good girl, to obey orders, don't speak up, please everyone.

This kept me safe and alive. For over three decades. 

Real me

The past almos four years I’ve dedicated to change my life. I’ve focused all my resources, money, time, energy and attention into getting better, clean, studying, learning, healing, growing, changing and evolving. Reclaiming my body, mind, life and finding my own voice.

Working with coaches, therapist, psychologists. With plant medicine, energy, transcendental meditation. Doing pilgrimages and travels all around the world. And most importantly working with my teacher and mentor Eve van Dalen®, and following my own guidance and intuition.

Three and a half years of every day hard work and dedication that let me here to the point where I'm able to share my story with you. And it's so much I want to tell you, adress and show you that when I tried to write the first draft I went over fourty A4 pages.

I'm doing weekly videos on different topics. With Intimite, uncensored and personal view of my life, journey, struggles and victories. How I went from being a completely broken, lost and just walking, smiling robot to reclaiming my body, life, voice and living with a purpose.

My story is shocking, and will show you the truth and reality behind what looked like a perfect life, a beautiful smiling girl and sexy photos and videos. That none of it was real.

But it will also inspire you, motivate you, empower you and show you that you can overcome anything. 
A story of resilience, healing, hope and a victory.

And in the meantime I'm writing my first book of many more to come. 

 I am Victoria, I am victory.
The girl who survived hell and walk out victorious and untameable.

And this is my story.